i felt it was like a year we've never contact each other and meet. even though we're contact to each other everyday. i just feel so lonely and empty. he's too busy with his school life. i just can't stand it. its just too long, its just too hard for me )'; i have decided to give up. but that was a stupid decision. i change my mind and i force my self to accept what things goes on now and situation. just as the quote says, "sometimes we just have to deal with the fact that life doesn't always goes our way". and i know he do this for our own good future, until we can get married and live a happy life together. (; so i just have to stay strong even though it is pain & hurt..

so true there. i just can't force my tears to fall just after came back from school. i don't know why. i hv tried to hold it, but it just can't. friends, lover ? just the same, MY TEARS FALL. no one cares except God, yeah ..

Wow, it's been a long time I've not update my blog. Full of flies. Hahah. Btw, many changes goes to my life this year. too many. too much. too many much. huh -_-