as usual, at 12am. i will call my dear. and last night, when i was call him, he directly said to me that he had a bad dream. and i ask what was it, and he tell me he dreamed that i go to other guy. there was a party at my home, and he was talking with my dad. suddenly he saw me with other guy, holding hands and looks very happy. and he said to me, the way i hold the guys hand just like i hold his hands. in that moment too, in his heart saying that "why she do this to me?", he can't stand it anymore. so he want to back home, his mom fetch him. he wait outside my house, and i'm still with that guy, ignoring him. when his mom arrive at my home, his mom saw i with the other guy, and his mom said to him "her boyfriend?", and he told me too, that his tears keep on falling. on the way back, he told me that he wants to call me, but i call him first and not by my number, but the guy who was with me. on that time, he told me that i kept on pretending that im just friend with that guy, nothing more. . .

while he told me about this, he was in tears, and me too. i was very touching, i never saw a guy before that is so meaningful and afraid to lose until he falls his tears. even though it is just a DREAM. not a reality, i really thanks God, i met him, i love him, and be with him. i never felt this feeling before, it is just so beautiful. i never been loved like this before. i can feel his love for me is deeper than the sea. he is my special gift ever ♥



I love you John and always be <3